How My Addiction Progressed
Not only did the pain medication give me an amazing feeling, but it helped me forget about how depressed I was about no longer being able to play softball. Without even realizing it, I was self-medicating my feelings of depression. The problem was that my prescriptions were no longer making me feel the way I wanted them to, so I started buying pills from some guys I knew so I could take more. I soon had to start stealing from my family to support my addiction, and it didn’t take long for me to find out heroin was cheaper as well as stronger.
My First trip to Detox
I knew what I was doing was wrong, and I tried to stop on my own, but the withdrawal was too harsh. I would end up buying more heroin just so I could feel well again. My parents finally had enough, and they sent me to a detox facility where they gave me Suboxone to help with my symptoms of withdrawal, and it made it much more tolerable. Unfortunately, it didn’t take long for me to start using heroin again.
Rehab Saved My Life
What I never realized about my heroin addiction until I went to rehab was that I had a problem with living. I had to go to detox at a rehab, and then follow through with a program of recovery. Sure, suboxone helped manage my withdrawal, but I needed more help. I didn’t want to be on suboxone forever. I had to start embracing my own recovery and taking suggestions from those who were trying to help me.
Therapists at my rehab explained to me that I needed a new designed for living because my way of doing things wasn’t working. I began to realize that I was using when I was sad or angry as well as happy or excited. Through therapy as well as the support from others in my treatment facility, I found that I never have to live the way I used to if I’m willing to remain honest, open-minded and willing.